*warning: sappiness content of this post is high*
So this is my last day with Mr. X before he leaves for Germany. He will be over there for a month before I join him. Last time he left for nearly 6 weeks before I joined him and it was torture. Whenever he is gone I always reflect on how I've only known him for a mere 5 years and in the big picture life it short so what on earth am I doing voluntarily opting to be apart from him? I'll never get that lost time back and when I reflect on that it makes me feel small and petty somehow for doing this again and again. All of these feelings are amplified when I read stuff like this. The reason I stay? Money. Don't get me wrong, temporally speaking money is important. But spiritually, mentally, emotionally and eternally speaking money doesn't matter. I'd much rather be poorer and with my husband than rich and alone. So it buoys me to think that hopefully this is the last time we do things this way.
On another note, I am looking forward to dinner tonight. Whenever Jeff leaves he gets to go out to dinner at a place of his choice. Being a very typical man, he wants meat. Lots of meat. So we are going to a barbecue place that is pretty tasty. (and meat is gluten free without sauce on it so that make life easier for me too!)
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