I have been officially unemployed for 10 days now. Many people have told me to relax and try to enjoy the time away from work. When they said this I nodded and smiled and took their words to heart, promising myself that I would indeed follow this sound advice. This morning I have come to the conclusion that relaxing and unemployment do not mesh where I'm concerned. I feel edgy and nervous and, more frustrating than all, useless. I feel like I'm not pulling my weight or contributing. I feel like everybody (including myself) is watching, waiting to see if and when I'll get a job. Aside from a few months post-college graduation, I've had a job consistently since I was 15. So naturally after 15 years of working, it is a foreign thing to be unemployed. I am fully confident that lacking a job wouldn't bother me one bit (I've got better things to do with my time, right?) if we didn't financially need me to bring in more money. But we do and thus the anxiousness will likely not abate until I've not only secured a job, but worked at that job for a few months. (There's always the initial worry for me that a few weeks into the job I'll get fired for incompetence or something.)
This morning I applied for several jobs. Keep your fingers crossed for me and say some prayers please.
3 comments:
Good luck! I am looking forward to hearing about what the employees are like at your next job. I need my funny-CDR-work-anecdote fix.
Now that you are in the area it might be easier as they won't have to fly you out there or anything. That is what happened to me when I moved there. Before that I was told, "Wait until you get here."
Good luck! you are in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there. It's normal to feel so anxious but put it all into getting your place set up.
I could never relax when I was unemployed. But I also HATED the first month of a new job. It was like the first day of school in a new town, except you feel like you could be kicked out at any moment for incompetence.
Okay, so that was not a very incouraging comment. Sorry. I guess I am trying to express empathy.
I am quite sure you will be back to blogging about weirdo co-workers in no time. In the mean time... do a lot of surfing -- day-time TV is the worst.
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